A 3rd Try for Treatment Tomorrow

We're preparing tonight for the 3rd attempt at getting Daniel into the hospital for his next round of chemotherapy tomorrow morning.  This phase is dependent on his white blood cell counts being above a certain level before they'll give him the treatment. The past 2 times, they haven't been high enough (in fact last time was the lowest they'd been in awhile).  He's been very active lately and being around a lot more people that I'm comfortable with (any exposure to germs can drop his counts further as he's much more susceptible to infections now) - but that's also really been good for his morale and getting some badly-needed exercise and sunshine.  So it's a mixed bag and I've been a lot more "lenient" on letting him do things because I know the psychological side (as well as the exercise itself) may well outweigh the risk of keeping him protected.  But as you might imagine, with what's at stake here, I tend to be a little over-protective of our "only begotten son"!

Tomorrow, we'll find out whether I've been too lenient.  It's rather ironic that "good news" in this case will result in admission to the hospital, a spinal tap, and a 24-hr dose of extremely toxic drugs into him that warrant 24hr surveillance until they're completely eliminated from his body.  But at this point, we just want to get through this - and even more so - the next phase.  The next one is actually the one that worries me the most.  It's referred to as "delayed intensification" and as the name implies, it's another very intensive 2-months of chemo.  His hair has been starting to come back in, his energy is up, he's slowly rebuilding some strength and stamina, but that phase is very likely to knock him back down several rungs again.  He's been unusually lucky (ahem) thus far to have not lost all his hair.  I believe it's a direct answer to prayer ... one of those "little things" that God has been pleased to grant him through this trial.  That was a big deal for him, and he's been really happy to have not had to shave it completely.  But we're warned that the next phase may break our "streak" and result in him losing what he has left.  We'll see ... and continue to pray for that little blessing to continue.

Through it all, God has been wonderful to us.  We've had every need met, been surrounded by the best doctors, friends, and family, and been learning a lot about trusting God with the big things as well as the small things.  Yet despite how well things appear to be going right now, it's never far from out minds how quickly it could all turn south.  Through this experience, we've been surrounded by so many, MANY others who are traveling similar roads.  Many we've met cause us to realize just how blessed and how "easy" our road has been thus far.  I've learned a LOT about strength, sacrifice, endurance, the need and power of prayer, and the value of Christian community.  Most of what I've learned is how far short I fall in these areas compared to the amazing people that God has brought into our lives.  It is my fervent prayer that all of us will forever be changed by these lessons and that they will ever be as fresh as they are now.

Those who have come alongside us during this time - helping with projects at the house, preparing meals, helping Andrea with cleaning, shopping, helping us financially with house renovations and medical bills, watching Daniel, even staying with him over night at the hospital so that Andrea and I could get some much needed rest - the generosity and self-sacrifice of so many around has been staggering ... unimaginable.  We will NEVER be able to fully express our appreciation to those who have helped in these and so many other ways.  And as I've said so many times before, with total honesty, the help that I covet the most from people is not with finances, or swinging hammers, or watching Daniel (though again, we're incredibly grateful for all these), but rather with prayer.  I can tell you with absolute certainty that, during those sudden trips to the emergency room at 2am, or bad news from the doctors hitting us like a freight train, there's no amount of money that can hold a candle to 20 or 30 people commenting on a Facebook post that they are praying and have their family or churches praying for us too.  We can feel those prayers like a warm blanket around us as the Holy Spirit draws us close and reminds us that He is in control and that those prayers go up before Him like a "sweet aroma" petitioning for the life and health of our son and our family.

Thank you.  Deep, heart-felt, eternal, and profound thanks to each one of you who have been a part of our journey through some sacrifice of your own - even just a minute or two in prayer.  Thank you, and may our Lord multiply your generosity back to you many-fold and many times.

For those who ask for our prayer requests they are few and simple right now:
1) That IF it be the Lord's will and timing tomorrow, that Daniel's blood counts will allow us to move forward with his treatment in the morning,
2) That it will go well - no mistakes, no adverse reactions or side effects, etc.,
3) That the drug will do it's job and be eliminated from his body quickly so we can all go back home, ultimately, moving always toward complete healing and health,
4) That we will be a witness for our loving Father and continue to grow and learn through all this - especially Daniel, and as always,
5) That God would be glorified in all this.

Grace and peace to you all,

- Tim -